I was invited as a recovered/recovering pornography addict to share some experiences and post to this blog. I have gone through the Innergold treatment program and am grateful to say I have learned to live sober as a pornography addict. I tried many attempts and various things to find sobriety in what was an 20 year addiction. None of these attempts worked long-term. It was the Innergold program that opened my eyes in ways I couldn't have imagined. I was to the point where I thought I would never get on top of pornography addiction. I was frustrated and my hope for long-term sobriety was all but gone. I'm the kind of guy that is successful, many know me and most wouldn't believe I am a porn addict. One church leader sat perplexed for a few minutes when I confessed; it took him a while to believe me. I have always been active in my church and had many responsibilities not associated with someone with a pornography addiction. I have probably been to over 20 church leaders over my life trying to get help for my addiction. Most church leaders were just as confused how to help me as I was confused about this addiction. I fit the mold of most addicts...we keep it a secret. Sadly thousands are becoming so accepting of porn that they don't even care it is a secret, rather they want to share their addiction to justify the behavior.
Many want to know "how long" I have been sober. Suffice to say that I used to relapse into porn where I would indulge for a week or so until I got so guilty and frustrated (or caught) that I felt forced to try to get help again. I didn't know how to stop once the cycle started. This cycle happened dozens maybe hundreds of times in my life. I even went through periods where I would hide the addiction for weeks/months learning to be a professional justifier. Most addicts know exactly what I am talking about. It has been a long time now since I have gone through that cycle. Innergold has taught me to stay sober and to pick myself up quickly when I find myself slipping so I don't go into full relapse. My goal in blogging and writing is to share the message that THERE IS HOPE. There is a way to get on top of pornography addiction and stay sober long-term. Definitely not easy or an overnight thing, but there is hope!
Pornography addiction plagues over 40 million US citizens and those are the group who statistically admit or show up on the waves to regularly view porn. I guess (probably accurately) that millions more refuse to admit in surveys that they view porn. It is ironic how embarrassed we porn addicts are to even be truthful in anonymous surveys. I used to be one of those "hide my addiction" statistics. Hiding is part of the denial of those addicted to pornography or whatever the addiction may be. Suffice to say that there are millions of pornography or sexually addicted people out there. Most are in denial and not seeking or caring for help...they will eventually hit rock bottom though. Here's an interesting statistic that I am making up. Unfortunately, I wish I were really making it up but due to lack of an actual survey I have to say "it's made up." 100% of those who regularly view porn or have some other sexual addiction will eventually hit rock bottom. Fortunately, for those seeking help there is hope. What's amazing is how enabling and fulfilling it is to get help and find sobriety. There will be a number of articles being published to this forum so please visit regularly no matter the reason.